So, I had my first week at my new job and it was pretty good, not too bad. I don't know if I'm enjoying it though honestly. It's nothing about the daycare, the staff or anything that happened....I guess I just don't know if I am enjoying working in childcare, period. It's a strange feeling and I'm not sure if it's because I'm overwhelmed or it's just something I don't want to do.
Today I got my cross-hairs on FF and I'm 5DPO. Like said in my previous post, I'm kind of not-not trying this cycle. We haven't stopped TTC, but I'm not doing any extra measures like OPKs, green tea, etc.
My BFF who is pregnant is due this week, so I'm excited to hear something soon!
My step-grandfather/godfather has been sick for the past 2 years with a heart condition and the past few months he's gotten worse. He goes to the hospital every 2 weeks now to get his blood topped up and in the last month has done some strange things (for him) that were pretty upsetting to think about...like redoing his will, putting the house in my grandmother's name and cleaning out his garage (which is a 4 car garage FILLED bottom to top with junk...he's a hoarder for sure).
Today I had to go over because he really wasn't well and my grandmother was really upset because he didn't want to go to the hospital (he's very stubborn). My gram has been suffering from extreme anxiety and depression with all of this so I stayed with her until my mom got there and talked to him. She said it sounds like he had a heart attack and got him to agree to at least her bringing him to see his nurse tomorrow morning. She usually argues with him and convinces him to go to the hospital, but thinking that he probably had a heart attack she didn't want to fight or get him all worked up. We're kind of bracing ourselves for the worst, especially since his behaviour has changed quite a bit in the last month, like he is preparing to leave us soon.
I have only lost one of my close family before, my grand-father (my mom's dad....my gram's first husband). He died when I was 6 but I don't really remember much of him (he was an alcoholic and wasn't around us that much). Wayne (my step-grandfather) has always been my grandfather to me, I have pictures and memories of him throughout my life, even a picture of him feeding me my 1st birthday cake.
Hoping this week looks up rather than down...there are quite a few things going on and I'm wishing for positive outcomes rather than negative ones!
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