The "What ifs"

First off, I'm not pregnant.

You know, just in case you were holding your breath after my last post!

Here is my chart for this past cycle  *sigh*

It was pretty, you know, before the big temp drop and that dreaded "end" to my hopefulness!

A 17 day LP, when I've always had 13 days was just cruel punishment!  I can't see where I could have O'd at any other time, so who knows what happened there.

Anyways,  I was thinking today about how many "what ifs" there actually are when you are TTC.  I'm not talking about the normal, obvious ones, like "what if this cycle really is the one",  I'm talking about all those little (or big) things that you never really realized or considered.

My last "big" one was when I purchased a bridesmaid dress for my friend's wedding.  I ordered it up a size because "what if" we get pregnant, I would be 6 months in October at the wedding!  Turns out I won't be (but could be 4-5 possibly!), and that was for the wedding of my friend who turned out to be very pregnant (she found out a week later).

Now, I'm faced with another one.

My mother-in-law sent Troy an email today asking if we could go to Zimbabwe (where DH is from and where they live) next April.  One of Troy's cousin's is getting married and she wants us to go there since I have never been (couldn't afford it and Troy couldn't travel while we were waiting for immigration).  She wants to book a houseboat and go to Kariba and everything.

I of course want to yell "YES, let's book it NOW!!!", since I've been very anxious to go there...I still have not met my father-in-law!  In walks in the "what ifs".   What if we get pregnant this cycle.  I would be due in February, meaning we would be travelling a crazy distance with a 2 month old.  If it happens the next cycle, it would be a 1 month old (or younger).  If it happens in 3 months after that, I would be flying to AFRICA in my third trimester.

See what happened there.

What happens then is you look at the best case scenario, what is ideal.  Out of all those options, it would be ideal if we went and had a 2 month old.  It's better than flying to a 3rd world country while heavily pregnant, and we will probably be a bit more relaxed then a baby who is only a few weeks old.

So guess what, if I want to be able to go to Zimbabwe and enjoy it, I have to get pregnant this cycle.  No pressure  :o)